Today was the girls first round of shots for their 2 month Well check. They did great! They did let out an "oh my gosh how could you do that to me ?!" type of cry but it only lasted for a minute. And Mommy didn't even cry though she was teary eyed...
Now as I sit here in my quiet house with two sleeping babies, as I try to catch up on household chores and ofcourse facebook. Iam thinking what a lucky person Iam. I have these two beautiful perfectly healthy babies and God chose me - yes me! to be their mother. I am so truly and richly blessed! I feel that if their is one thing I am made to do it is to be a mother. I love it..even the lack of sleep, the 3 am feedings and the sore breast and constantly being tied to a pump or a baby, I love it and savor every waking minute of it. I am so excited to raise these two miracles. I can't help but to get a big head when the girls doctors (neonatologist and pediatrician) congratulate us and tell me what a wonderful job I am doing, my ego is very large right now, I am so proud to be doing a good job at being a mother! But I will try to humble myself for the Lord.
My mind does drift into a bit of sadness as I realize that my own mother is not here to be a part of this. I also think about how she must have felt knowing she was not going to be able to raise her own children, the fear the pain the sadness. I cannot even let my mind drift to think what it would be like if I could not raise my girls, my heart would simply break. I do know that she is their guardian angel and we do talk to her photo that I have hanging in the nursery. My girls will know their grandmother and how special she is.
Thank you Jesus for all you have blessed us with. Thank you for our trials, for it has made me a more faithful Christian.
" I hear babies cry and I watch them grow, they'll learn much more than we'll know and I think to myself what a wonderful world"
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