a small silver lining.

A small silver lining to a big storm cloud today... an emotional conversation with a favorite middle sister that let me cry and cry and yell and complain when I was ready to give up on the good Lord, a sister that reminded me that I am stronger than I can see, that I have been through worse things and there is a reason for this, that I need to keep my faith in the Lord.

Another phone call... a glimmer of hope when I was at my own version of "rock bottom" when despair and sadness had taken over and the weight of the world felt unbearable....He stepped in.
The truth set me free. I was finally able to have a voice and be heard.

People read this and pass their own judgements. I post this because someday..... somewhere my experience can be used to help others. My tears will not be wasted. My broken heart will help mend another broken heart. Thank You Lord for reminding me that I need to keep my faith and HOLDFAST...eventhough I was ready to throw in the towel.

Now... I move past hurting and coping and on to healing and forgiveness. I think I am ready to start that process, it will take time but I am ready to move on with my life.

I have learned Oh so much during this entire process. I know in my heart of hearts that this is for HIS greater-good.

Don't worry, I won't leave you hanging. I will eventually share my story. When I am ready. It's one of those" you don't think it could happen to you"- but HA it can and will and did- kind of a story. But the Lord is good. He is rearranging, preparing me for his army and his plan. He is at work.

a Crater in the road.

Some people say they hit "a bump in the road"... mine was more like a crater...we are livin' life around here folks... and it is not easy right now....but God is rearranging.

I don't have any new pictures to share :( Hopefully I will get around to taking some soon...or hopefully the twirly birds will hold still long enough to let me take a picture ;)

The good Lord is at work in our lives. There has been a lot going on around here(isn't there always something?). I will eventually share all the happenings when I am at PEACE with it. When I can speak about it, write about it without being crying or hyperventilating, when the sadness and anger are gone, when I forgive, when I am fully at Peace. I'm getting there. Finally able to eat and I am actually tired so I think I might sleep well tonight. I am not sure how often I will be blogging but no worries, I will just be focusing on other things; the twirly birds, husband and the good Lord.
I leave you with some encouraging words I found from this blog. I encourage you to check it out..it is truly inspiring.

"Whether you can see it now or not,your life is one of the greatest testimonies to the goodness and creative capabilities of God you're ever going to behold. For what he has already given you thats good. And for how he can redeem your life after it falls apart, or remake your heart after it's been shattered."

Kit-tee

What can I say?.... They love her.

Chloe' enjoyed the attention......a little....

Chloe' drools... a lot... especially when she gets the attention she wants....and the twirly birds and I were loving on her and showing her all kinds of attention until... Miss Lilly Pop takes her finger and sticks it in the string of drool hanging from Chloe's mouth then puts her finger in her mouth like she is tasting frosting!... then Momma becomes spastic and runs Lilly Pop to the sink to wash out her mouth and scrub her hands ,Chloe' runs to the basement and Cupcake (Joelle) runs after Chloe, starts screaming because "Kit- Tee" is gone .... all the while Momma is praying out loud " God please don't let Lilly go septic and die because she decided to lick cat drool, Please!"...