a small silver lining.

A small silver lining to a big storm cloud today... an emotional conversation with a favorite middle sister that let me cry and cry and yell and complain when I was ready to give up on the good Lord, a sister that reminded me that I am stronger than I can see, that I have been through worse things and there is a reason for this, that I need to keep my faith in the Lord.

Another phone call... a glimmer of hope when I was at my own version of "rock bottom" when despair and sadness had taken over and the weight of the world felt unbearable....He stepped in.
The truth set me free. I was finally able to have a voice and be heard.

People read this and pass their own judgements. I post this because someday..... somewhere my experience can be used to help others. My tears will not be wasted. My broken heart will help mend another broken heart. Thank You Lord for reminding me that I need to keep my faith and HOLDFAST...eventhough I was ready to throw in the towel.

Now... I move past hurting and coping and on to healing and forgiveness. I think I am ready to start that process, it will take time but I am ready to move on with my life.

I have learned Oh so much during this entire process. I know in my heart of hearts that this is for HIS greater-good.

Don't worry, I won't leave you hanging. I will eventually share my story. When I am ready. It's one of those" you don't think it could happen to you"- but HA it can and will and did- kind of a story. But the Lord is good. He is rearranging, preparing me for his army and his plan. He is at work.