Change

Can be good... or bad or indifferent.
Obama...can keep his change(sorry, Conservative here).
Almost all changes are done to get some sort of result...right?

A lot of changes going on here. Trying to get the girls to go to sleep on their own at night which includes 30-45 minutes of screaming and crying until they wear themselves out.
Result I am reaching for... earlier, independent bed times.
Trying to get the girls napping and feeding schedules figured out... do I really know what I am doing?...Answer... uhh verdict still out.

Anyway on to the point I am trying to reach.
Today I felt like crying almost all day long. Why? Because everytime I start to get "comfortable" with a job... another change happens and it rocks my world. Sometimes... I like change but unless I am the one trying to make that change... they can keep it for themselves.
Today my boss' boss , home health social worker and myself had a meeting. The result of this meeting was something that I did not expect. Whenever I was hired as a "PRN" social worker at a set 32 hours I was told that after a year that position would go full time with benefits. Well -the dreaded happened today. Turns out, no it will remain PRN and they (the company) wants me to transition into home health/palliative care/hospital liaison Social worker - full/part time with benefits (did you get all that?). Well, while I am very thankful beyond words that I have a job, I am very sad for yet another change. I have only worked in Hospice since November and just getting comfortable and here we go again. My last job I worked 7 months and was laid off. The job before that I had very hateful co-workers and left after 3 months to take the job that laid me off. I know I should just have faith but I am sad. I actually enjoy this job and I would like to stick with it for at least a couple years to get grounded before I go back to school to get my masters. But God has other plans. I guess I need to have a little more faith. He does know what he is doing and he knows the result. - I just don't understand at this point. My coworkers are sad and I have already received an award in this position so what gives?..