Dear Lord, Please send more chocolate

Still no camera ... soon though , hopefully... because I want to show off my TWIRLY BIRDS haircuts!
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Job: again overdosing on Dr. Pepper, thoughts about beating my self over the head with their GINORMOUS training manual that I have had to sit and read for yes 4 days now... and will again tomorrow... UGH
I DID get to go to see the workshop where some of my clients will be working and I was able to meet one of my peers' clients... they(the client) were fun... they only like blue shirts and blue pants... OH I only wish I could be so simple!! I loved that they whispered their size to my peer...as if they were embarrassed about needing a larger size because ..they like to eat out.
That was a HIGHLIGHT for me because right before that I was praying for joy..because I have major difficulty finding that in my life...especially through these last two months of harsh trials...(I do count my kids). But that client brought me joy because I love how simple they are about life... 4 pairs of pants, some blue shirts and they are content... the way we were meant to be..child like... faithful, simple, loving.

I had a moment when I was PRAYING, BEGGING God to just bring me some chocolate... not literally but you know... something good in life. I'm stressed.. about our new sitter, about the car, about the job that I am unsure about, about my training at the job, about finding another counselor, a new hair stylist.... just feeling sorry for myself... me-? no .. never HA!... and I I have caught myself crying on my lunch break again! NO NO NO NO MORE doing that...
I know I am SUCH a Debbie Downer!...I'm trying to get better I Really AM!

POSITIVES
TARGET- my addiction. DR PEPPER- My PROBLEM. NEW JOB- thankful to have one. Chic-fil-a chicken salad sandwiches. Twirly birds, office buddies, peanut butter m&m's, the new stylist I am trying on saturday, JESUS.
Losses so far:
job, car, hairstylist, hair-literally, counselor, sanity, ten lbs, joy
Gains so far:
new job, new to me car, trying out new hair stylist, praying for sanity and joy, my hips have narrowed back down enough to be the size I was before the twirly birds... maybe even a lb or 2 smaller YAHOO.