Cause there's a bigger picture

Just when I thought we were moving on and on the up hill slide....they decided to remain in the toilet. While I have been praying to God for Flashing lights, Billboards and arrows to the path he wants me to follow... I didn't mean flashing lights via AMBULANCE. Nor did I need to have my name broadcast on television. I am a wall flower and I am just fine with not being noticed. Our world came crashing down (again).... literally on Friday April 8. I was so excited for my weekend trip to Iowa to go see my family and friends and enjoy myself and relax and have family time. I had my Sonic Dr. Pepper for me and sippys with white grape juice for the twirly birds, bags packed Ginny Owens in the CD player. Driving down the road, thinking about the shopping I am going to do with my sisters when I get to Iowa, thinking about what type of outfit to buy for my new job... and thinking about that annoying/ scary sound coming from my newly replaced wind shield... what is that?... I didn't even have the opportunity to make it out of Buchanan county. We just had the windshield replaced in my car two days prior because of a spider web crack... well when I started driving down the Highway I noticed a lot of whistling and rattling... like the windshield was going to be sucked off by the wind.... well my mind tends to jump to worse case scenario so I thought "oh Tabitha ignore it, its fine, maybe just hasn't quite settled, just turn up the radio." So while passing a lovely gold car I reached down to turn up the radio ... why I don't know ?...(because the controls are also on my steering wheel)....anyway out of the corner of my eye I thought I was drifting too close to the car I was passing(hind sight I think I was actually fine) so I quickly turned the wheel.... a little too much and...the car took control over its self. While this song is playing, I hear the tires squeel ,I feel my car toss and turn and bounce, then just when I think its over, my car starts rolling and rolling, glass shattering , things in the car being tossed around, I am screaming help us! My babies, no! Please God. I turned to reach to the back of the car as we start rolling. When we finally stop on our wheels...thankfully I hear the girls crying and what a blessing that was! Witnesses run up to our vehicle trying to get me out- we couldnt get my door open and I am just screaming "I have two babies I have two babies!" The good samaratin opens the passenger door and I am able to climb out half crying, shaking, in shock, unable to really focus...( I may have blacked out for a second... I'm not really sure. )anyway the police and ambulance arrive, the good samaratins bring my luggage and all other items that had scatterd across the Highway back to my car. We are loaded up in the ambulance and taken to the local hospital. My neck and back were hurting... The girls don't even have a scratch. The fire department and state patrol said they have never seen anyone strapped in so well. They said they should have taken a picture of what it is supposed to look like after an accident. Yes I am a carseat nazi and proud of it. This Saved my girls life.

Yes, we will be buying two more just like it.

After x- rays, scraping glass out of my eyes and mouth we were discharged. While leaving the hospital I told Brian about the song that I had playing in the CD player. I told him that this verse kept going through my head... "Cause there's a bigger picture you can't see You don't have to change the world, just trust in Me 'Cause I am your creator, I am working out my plan And through you I will show them, I Am "

God is talking to me. I know that to some of you - you think.. yeah right you are crazy but honestly silly things happen to me.... usually in dreams. I had dreams I would marry a Brian, I had dreams about having twin girls. But this song... is God's voice. I know it is. He is amazing. I am scared. I hope nothing else happens but I also hope my story can help others, I hope I continue to hear his voice.

I will keep you posted on all the happenings around here. GOd is working BIG in OUR LIFE. Can't wait to see whats next, because he is writing my story... maybe not how I pictured it.. but I know this is all for him.

oH by the way. .... ALL of my luggage, pack n plays, stroller, pillows toys... everything was recovered except... someone from the towing company went through my duffle bag and stole the only 3 valuable items I owned... my camera, camera charger and my iphone charger... so needless to say it will be awhile before pictures are posted... either I have to get an iphone charger or a new camera. The thing that makes me the most ANGRY is the fact that the theif stole my memories.. the memory card in the camera, take all that ...fine just give me back my memory card :(