boredom- random post.

*yawn*
I don't know about you all but I have Cabin fever so bad... I want to drag out my spring clothes to dress up in so I can feel a bit better...but... let's face it... I don't even know if my spring clothes will fit me this year because last year at this time I was pregnant. Anyway. More snow this weekend. SURPRISE. We have been shut inside the house all weekend. I got out a little bit yesterday to make a Target run and I forgot a few things so I need to go again but I don't think that will happen....

The girls have been fussy this weekend. I think they have cabin fever too. I haven't been able to get anything done. They have worn me out. I am not much of a tv watcher. There is NOTHING on. Same re-run lifetime movies. Same abc family movies that I have seen. I am going crazy. Brian is off this weekend...buuut he has been down in the basement cleaning things... which is nice for me. Anyway. I. am. BORED.

I have already decided that my day off on Tuesday I am going to our fancy renovated Mall with-no stores- and I am going to put it to good use by walking in circles. I am going to go after their mid morning feeding and burn some calories. Then maybe since I am going to be able to get some exercise. I will be able to fit into my spring clothes that I haven't worn in so long.... thats all for now.

Lets be honest.............

The Bachelor. Do you watch it? I have just started watching it again this season after taking a break for a few years. Here are my thoughts....

1. I like Jake as the bachelor...he is cute and seems genuine.
2. I thought all of the hometown dates were awkward.
3. How cute is Tenley?
4. Vienna...in my opinion...young, immature, not ready to settle down, enjoys drama.
5. How is Tenley ready to move on after just a short time?
6. Though I love little Tenley, you would have to be blind not to see the fireworks between him and Vienna.
7. I want him to pick Tenley
8. I am pretty sure he is picking Vienna because he asked her what ring she would like! :(

Please tell me your thoughts! Would love to know!

Sweet sweet LOVE!

This is me being silly... I am learning to embrace my pale skin... the doctor told me .."no more tanning bed."
Below is our festive Valentine's outfits....Lily's butt and my new Target Shirt...Love it!... though I am honestly not a fan of Valentine's day... we felt the need to be festive anyway.

The girls valentines present! A bumbo chair! I have been wanting to get these for a long long time but Brian said "we have too much junk already and we don't need it." Well I went and bought one at Target last night after work... they love it. I plan on buying another one in purple :)

Look at these sweet little outfits! I love them...they are velour... I bought them at Babies R Us last summer on clearance for $10! Originally like $30... I fell in love with them. So after I got them dressed this morning I thought.... I am tired of staying home....soo we decided to go out for the very FIRST time!

Two beautiful babies -check *2 carseats -check* bear, bunny and binkies...check check check...

First we went to see Daddy at work @ Lowe's. I had trouble getting the stroller to fold the top seat down so I could get the carseats in... and some guy was sitting in his van laughing at me as I struggled for about 10 minutes... annoying! But eventually we made it into the store. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. People stared but I tried to keep them covered...(yes I have a major fear of GERMS!.. the NICU Docs put the fear in me that if they got sick they could die or be back in the NICU). So needless to say I am anal about it... and surprisingly when one of Brian's co workers touched Lily's face with his dirty little hands ... I didn't yell or flip out I just said "oh we better go." then I said a quick prayer "God- please don't let Lily get sick because that man touched her with his dirty hands!"

Second stop Hobby Lobby. I needed some scrapbook supplies... this was a little interesting... people stared and said "oh my you are brave." Brave?! why? I have two children not two beast.

Again I had trouble with the stroller when I got out to the parking lot... I couldn't get the carseats out of the stroller they were locked in so tight! Thank goodness a girl I know was there and she helped me get them out

Sweet Sweet Lillian Bliss

My little "cupcake" Joelle Renee'

I love these little outfits so much I took a million pictures!

HAHA LOOK AT JOELLE'S FACE!

I needed to mark the age somehow because otherwise I have no idea when I print them off...soo this is what I have resorted to...

HAHAHHA! LOVE IT!

The back of their outfits... sooo cute!! love those little bum bums !

A year ago today- 2/9

A year ago today I found out that I was pregnant. with one (or so I thought) of these little loves. I remember it like it was yesterday.
I woke up,nauseated. Got in the shower, threw up, called into work and began to come to terms with the idea that I had the flu and would not be able to drive to Iowa for my friends Mothers funeral. :( I told Brian "well I guess I could be pregnant bc I feel awful, go buy a pregnancy test." So then Brian comes home with an old fashioned pregnancy test...surprised they still made them that way...(would show pics but I lost my memory card..more about that later)...So I peed on the test and one line instantly showed up. I threw it in the trash...(I knew I wasn't really pregnant). So I figured I had the flu. So I slept most of the morning and in the afternoon I got my fill of Lifetime movies, while watching the "Dilley sextuplets" I had one of those little voices say ..."maybe just to be sure I should check the pregnancy test again." So I went into the batroom and the pregnancy test was laying on top... I looked at it... and did a double take and then jumped up and down... there were TWO lines!! I didn't wait long enough for the second line earlier. So I thought...well I better go get more test to make sure. So I went to Walgreens and bought two more test...instantly positive! I went to the flower shop and bought a bunch of pink and blue balloons and put them in the bathroom and lined all three pregnancy test up. I called Brian and told him he HAD to come home for his dinner break because something was wrong with the bathroom sink HA! So he came home and went into the bathroom and looked at the balloons...didn't get it at first then he saw the test and said "are you serious" and I jumped up and down and said YES! Then months of sickness followed for the both of us. It's funny because I instantly thought...it's a girl... but I never thought "twins."
I had pictures to document all of these moments I took a picture of my then flat tummy and documented each month ...well the memory card with all of those pictures has disappeared, I have prayed and cried and prayed and prayed to find it because I hadn't printed them yet and I still havent found it. I am so upset because I documented all of the pictures for the girls to see. So sad... PLEASE if you think of it pray that I find it! Please!....

Show us your life- FAV beauty products

My favorite eyeshadow.

CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THIS!!!

oR THIS TO SMOOTH THE HAIR

The only shampoo/ conditioner that works on my strange hair texture.

Favorite face lotion. I've used this for a long long time.

No time for any other products. Guess I am no Beauty Queen.

Sleeper Saturday....and ....Sunday

Today we tried cereal.... as you can see it came out faster than it went in...

Lily was obviously in pain... I was torturing her so... can you see how much she liked it???

Can you tell who is who in this picture? I bet not...

We spent all weekend in sleepers, normally I put them in outfits but... I thought.. I am in my Yoga pants...ALL weekend... so they should be comfy too. Hangin out with mom...our favorite past time :)

Look .... we even sleep alike...( Sigh) For the love of twins.... I think right now I have more than a cup runneth over... maybe the Mississippi??

Hope you all had a nice relaxing weekend with your families!

My Mississippi runneth over...

Blue

Look at these sweet babies. I want to give them the world and all of my time, but because of the world I cannot give them all of my time.

I am in a bit of a funk. Maybe its the weather, being shut up inside all fall and all winter, maybe its the stress of working and trying to be wonder woman at the same time, maybe its the fact that my training at work was never completed so half the time I feel like an idiot when I don't know something, maybe its because I still can't lose that last 10-15 lbs, maybe its the fact that I havent had a solid full nights sleep since oh I dunno June? Maybe its just me.
I am so looking forward to spring so I can take the girls on walks and get some exercise and fresh air! I am excited and stressed about taking the girls out. Excited because before I became a mother I was always going somewhere and doing something. I liked to go window shop, but now things will be different because we attract so much attention. I am a wall flower, I prefer to blend in and be ignored. But being blessed with two adorable twin girls makes that impossible. We go to the doctors office everyone stares...or even follows us. I guess I didn't realize how crazy people are about babies. I mean I would always smile at them from a distance or maybe glance in a cart or stroller but never walk up to someone and stop and coo and touch and get in their childs face...but I guess we are all different.
Anyway another topic that has me and probably everyone else in the world FRUSTRATED....money. I hate it. I mean Brian and I are not in a huge amount of debt. We have the basics...car, house, medical bills, student loans...no crazy credit card debt thank goodness. But the thing that frustrates me. My paychecks go straight to student loans and child care. The only reason I am working is to pay for my student loans that I have because I wanted to be able to do something other than work at Starbucks for the rest of my life (nothing wrong with those that do, just wasn't for me ). Now I will spend the next 20 + years paying off that debt, when I could have been frugal and stayed at home with my 2 blessings....
Anyway.. I have been thinking about doing the Dave Ramsey financial classes. Just so I can get rid of the Student loan debt. But I have an issue with paying $$$ to learn how to manage my $$$. On the other hand I have heard a lot of good things about his financial peace university. I already pay for things out of my own account, I only use the credit card for things like expensive Car repairs. I don't buy a lot of clothes or shoes anymore. I just don't have the time to shop like I used to so I spend money on things like food and some things for the girls. But I don't like that I always use the debit card instead of cash....bad debit card bad bad bad.
The last debt issues...medical bills.. Brian and I are supposed to get a hefty refund this year...however... it will be spent on his medical bills and our NICU bill.
One good thing is the fact that I finally realize life isn't about "things"...I mean sure like anyone else I would like a bigger house...a newer nicer car and top of the line american dreams but...I have figured out that I can be happy without all of those worldly things. Family and Friends is what makes me happy....because ultimately...all of those worldly things can be taken and all that is left is the people you love and that love you.
on another note...Spring...please hurry...we all need u.